I was reading Morning and Evening this morning and decided to go back a day and read yesterday's morning devotional that I had missed. I found a sweet treasure...
Spurgeon was talking about how we tend to see the apostles and other figures from the Bible as super saints and not subject to the same temptations and weaknesses we are.
"Yet in doing so, we forget this truth, that the nearer a man lives to God, the more intensely he has to mourn over his own evil heart; and the more his Master honors him in his service, the more the evil of the flesh vexes and teases him, day by day."
I. FEEL. SOOOOO. RELIEVED!
There are days I feel like I wish I could operate in "Ignorance is Bliss" mode because I hate seeing my failures and shortcomings. The more I want to be a saint worthy of her calling, the farther I seem to be from it!
I'm so excited to know that the closer I walk to the Light, the more obvious the problems in my heart are going to appear...they have no choice but to show up!
And...the enemy of my soul and my own wicked flesh is going to vex and tease me the more I want to be like Jesus.
This is apparently how it should be. As long as I am walking on this earth, it's how it will be.
So, when I'm feeling like a failure, let's hope it's just because I'm walking close with Jesus, and everything shows up better in the "Light"...and He loves me too much to let me remain in darkness...
ahh...
